It’s been far too long since I’ve been here. I took an unintentional hiatus from the professional life I have been working on for years. There are times in life when one realizes the necessity of the soul. Mine required feeding, in many more ways than one. I have reached the point where I recognize this nurturing has helped develop my state of mind. I have learned to let go of those things I could not change, and I’m now more accepting of the things I cannot.
I believe it is in these moments when we learn the most about ourselves. I’ve learned that even though I experienced moments of weakness, I am strong. I’ve learned that even though I have made numerous mistakes as a mother, I’m a good parent. I’ve learned that even if I have to cry from sadness, I can smile through it.
I think it is quite a brave endeavor to smile through the tears. I had to get to the bottom to really see myself behind facade that insecurity builds around us. I had to allow my self image to completely deconstruct in order for me to start at ground level, again. I needed that! It is virtually impossible to rebuild a solid structure over an impaired or broken one. I painted a smile over the most wounded face I have ever had, and my soul knew it was bunk.
I now see the world as it is, and not as I would like it to be. I see my world as it is, and I am working to create a better one. As minute as my results may be, I am still producing results. I am still here carving my place, and although it is different than it used to be, it is still beautiful and mine.
I am here to tell you, only you have this power. Stop whatever you’re doing at this moment and take a good look at yourself in the mirror. The person you see staring back at you has so much more tenacity than you could ever imagine. Your soul will thank you for it, later.
I promise!